12:17 am 12th August 2017

FATE

DESTINY

SYNCHRONICITY

KISMET

     What coincidence is it then that I received a message from a friend Monday morning before work, offering me a chance to do my artwork again... Then, a mere hour later, I am informed that my services are no longer needed at my place of employment? 

FATE? DESTINY?

Later, I asked my friend why he'd contacted me... he said he felt like we were... connected again. We are both in a better frame of mind than we were 4 years ago when we last worked together, perhaps now is a better time for us to try this mutual venture.
    I watched Cloud Atlas again tonight. I saw it several years ago and although it resonated with me then, it did not hit me as clearly as in this viewing. What has lead me to THIS place, in THIS time?

There were so many strings that had to be pulled, so many paths to choose and cross. All those years preparing for NOW... HERE and NOW. Years I searched for my meaning, my purpose if you will, years spent at pointless jobs with people who didn't understand or appreciate me. All my searching, following signs - impulses - to find...
...HIM... Patrick, my best friend. For his youth one might doubt his wisdom or sincerity. But he is far beyond his years in both. His life, his losses, have made him a man equal to my needs for a dear friend. When I lost my job, my other friends were quick to give their sincere sympathies and offer up advice on just what I must do now..."focus on finding a new job, go get your unemployment benefits, you are skilled and friendly, you should have no trouble finding something..." etc. But he got me out of the house, took me to his place and we watched a movie and did laundry (all after I cried...nay wailed, all over him, bemoaning my situation). Then we went to the theater to see a movie (Atomic Blonde). That's just what I needed...diversion, not focus on what had just happened and my self pity. He KNOWS me, he gets me on the deepest level. I thank The Powers That Be every day for my HERO, my BEST FRIEND, my Love.

     The movie Cloud Atlas suggests that there is life after life... that LOVE transcends TIME and we meet our LOVE again and again throughout history. This I would like to believe, feeling that I have once again found my TRUE LOVE.
     "To be is to be perceived. And so to know thyself is only possible through the eyes of the other. The nature of our immortal lives is in the consequences of our words and deeds that go on and are pushing themselves throughout all time... Our lives are not our own. From womb to tomb we are bound to others. Past and present. And by each crime and every kindness... we birth our future." Sonmi 451